I guess if I’m going to start a blog I need to have a reason for it. Or maybe I don’t NEED to have a reason to start a blog, but if I want it to have direction, or even more important if I want people to care to read it, some sense of a purpose would help. So here goes…I won’t pretend to believe everyone I know is dying to hear what I have to say. In fact, this is one of my biggest aggravations with society today. Everyone thinks they are entitled to everyone else’s attention. This sense of entitlement isn’t something we pick up as adults in college or even as teenagers. No, this is bred into kids as early as T-ball. It is the entitlement factor that causes kids to believe they are the center of the universe, and thus freak out when any aspect of their life deviates from everything they have been told they are and everything they have ever dreamed would come true.
With that being said, I ask that readers realize I am not always writing to entertain them, nor do I write with the perception that you would love to know what’s going on in my life. First and foremost, I am writing to organize my own thoughts. If you are reading this, and happen to check into my life every once in a while, you will see there is a lot going on with me. Once again, I don’t expect anyone to care though. This is for me first. If you would like to know about me and choose to read this as well, I do appreciate it and hope you find something worth looking for.
With that being said, thank you for taking the time to check into my life. It has been a crazy roller coaster the past 23 years and I don’t anticipate the ride ending anytime soon. I plan to regularly update as things happen or as news comes to me. At the moment, my news has been centered around my health which you may come to learn and understand more about in time.
Jordan, thank you for posting your thoughts and feelings on this blog. I know it's a drag to constantly explain your situation repeatedly. I really hope that you continue to blog during this challenging period in your life. Like you mentioned, it's a way for you to organize your thoughts. Maybe I should start doing something similar. Sometimes everything going on in life seems to create some kind of traffic jam in my head. When that happens I find myself in a procrastinating funk and I hate that shit! I have had to figure out how to free up the congestion but it still seems to jam up from time to time. I have had my own small challenges in life, nothing in comparison, but because of those things I sought advise from different sources many of whom didn't have a freaking clue! One of the most useful tools I retained came from Dr. Wayne Dyer. It’s about being in the present moment. Am I Present? I find this very effective when my thoughts wonder into the uncontrollable past and future. I'm sure your thoughts right now are mostly focused on the future and that is completely understandable. Focusing too much on the future pulls me away from the now, and the present moment becomes depreciated.
ReplyDeleteWe can't control the future nor do we know what it will bring so dwelling on things that we can’t immediately control is useless and a waste of precious energy and time. I’m not discounting future planning but I am saying be weary of where those thoughts are leading you. As men we are naturally control freaks. When things don’t seem to go as planned we concentrate even more on adjusting our plans for the future meanwhile we neglect the present and maybe even the people that share that present time with us. I don’t mean to ramble but I don’t want to see you fall into the same mental pit I have encountered in my life. One day at a time is all you really need to think about but remember to really savor each moment in a different way and maybe from a different perspective. I know you will pull through this but don’t let it defeat you mentally. Stay strong and know that you are family and I am here for you. My writing skills suck and definitely don’t compare to yours so don’t grade this Mr. Connell! Is that what your students call you? It took me like 14 hours just to write this! Maybe I won’t start something similar.