So here I am in my cousins car on the I-5 in California and all I can think of are how my students are behaving for their sub right now. I know I probably should be more concerned with my own personal matters, but I feel like there is still so much in my life outside of this and I don't want my cancer to drown out the rest of my life. Right now my kids are in third period and I am constantly thinking of how they are doing. If I do need to have medical work, how will their education be affected? People keep telling me to take care of myself first, but I keep going back to their education. Most people won't really understand it unless you actually work in education and you see as a teacher how much of an influence you actually are, or in some cases, how much some of these kids just need something stable to hold onto. I like that I am able to be a figure for students to look up to, but maybe for some kids I can't be that now.
Anyway, that's what I am thinking right now. With all of this going on, there has just been a lot of time to think, and obviously lots to think about.
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